Weigh in on it? Get it? Weigh in?? Ok, terrible pun aside.
(Disclaimer: I normally don’t talk about my weight or body issues, but i’m going to be bold here and share my fears, which i’m sure a lot of you guys can relate to about swim wear and confidence etc.)
A week ago I’d never even heard the term “Fatkini”. What is it, you ask? Well, it’s a plus size bikini. There’s lots of debate in the fat acceptance community on whether this is a empowering word that we’ve taken back, or a fat shaming word that labels us. I can see both sides of the argument, but really, it’s just a word and I don’t really care.
Where did this whole voyage into “fatkini’s” come from? Well, one day Andy and I were talking about my weight-loss progress (I’m at 21 pounds lost since last fall) and I was despairing about every reaching my goal and Andy was trying to bolster my spirits by saying that he loves me no matter what and that he just wants me to feel confident and comfortable and then (i can’t remember the exact words) something about how he wants me to do whatever it takes for me to feel comfortable in a bikini.
It stopped me cold.
A bikini?! What?!
I was all…. “ERRRHMMMMMM, yah that’s never ever ever going to happen!!!!!!!!!”
Even if i did reach my goal the thought of wearing a bikini is just plain frightening. And I got a little upset, thinking that Andy has un-realistic goals for me that I’ll never achieve, (which of course is not what he meant) and how no matter how much weight I lose I’ll always be worried about my tummy and stretch-marks and so forth. But then something happened over the following weeks.
I started to think about how I do need a new bathing suit (we’ve been planning our honeymoon so swimming is very much on my mind!) and I thought well, maybe I’m not quite at the bikini stage yet, but maybe I could find something a bit sexier or bolder than my boring safe brown plus size tankini i normally look for.
This led me to the internets to check out suits, (because where I live there is pretty much nothing here for plus size stuff) and all of a sudden, i start seeing pics and posts everywhere of this whole “fatkini” movement. And these women looked good! They looked happy and confident and were rocking these two pieces like nothing else!
Then I saw this one.
And I fell in LOVE.
Could I pull this off? I started to think so. I started to think, HELL YES.
I love the high waist, very flattering, hides the part I’m worried about. But cosmic and sexy and damn, i wants! This is part of a new collection from Gabi Fresh that doesn’t even come out until the 15th of May but I can’t stop obsessing about it! I neeeeeeed to own this suit and rock it on my honey moon. I haven’t mentioned it to Andy and I’m not worried he’ll see this, (he NEVER reads my blog so we’re ok) so I want to surprise him with this sexy suit! The article said prices will range from $50 to $99 ish which is pretty reasonable for a suit. So. Yah. is it may 15th yet??? I need to wake up early and set an alarm / reminder because I have a feeling this suit is going to sell out FAST!
Any who, enough about that. You know what is also exciting?!
Emerald and Bouquet! SO EXCITED!