If Wishes were Fishes

I wish there was

an ER

for wounds of the heart.

b/c I do not know how

to heal this

bloody gaping wound

inside my


I wish there was

a magic needle,

in which i could stitch myself (so raw)



I wish i could take

time away.

time apart.

time heals all?

but this.

the trauma

is too severe.

it surprises me

that everyone cannot see it

that everyone is not scrambling for their cell phones

to call an ambulance for my

butchered heart.

(oh yah, it’s all inside me…)

Where once was a

back yard filled

with laughter



with fresh sheets on the line,

where two little girls filled their shoes

with ice cold


for kicks-

in now a scene of devastation.

Flooded by

the ever renewing source of


and irrevocable loss…

my tears have

drowned it


I LOVE THE SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!

It’s been so rockingly hot and gorgeous here in Victoria! Summer time is most certainly here!

Since of course I’m too lazy to write a proper blog post, here’s my last few months via PICS! YAH!

Firstly, i signed up for two on-line course to see how easy it would be to get back into study mode!

Chibi cat has just LOVED this new development.  We have a new routine where she keeps me company as i study, provided I hook her up with some paper to lounge on.

photo 5





My mum gave me this lovely plant! It’s called a portulaca! And it’s soooooo gorgeous and blooms like crazy! Also note worthy in this picture is my awesome new Wine Tumblr.  Classy!photo 3



Holy addictive batman.  And it’s making me ALL nostalgic for my old wow days….photo 4


The summer skies have been oh so lovely… (and oh so chem-y if you know what I mean!photo 1 (1)

Chibi cat is my favouritest thing in the whole universe!photo 2 (1)

Coming in a short second are sunday afternoons with my Mumkins.  This is her lovely garden, (up on the 12th floor), proving she’s got the greenest thumb ever!
photo 1 (2)

More Chibiness….photo 4 (1)

More Wines…..photo 3 (1)

New song I love….

photo 5


What’s going on with you internet world?

I’ve missed the sun…

After a few rainy weeks here we’ve had a small break with some lovely sun that has done wonders for restoring my good spirits. I just love walking to work when it’s all bright and sunny out. Especially when I see interesting things like this!

Nine Eleven

This isn’t the first time I’ve seen 9/11 truth stuff in Victoria, and every time, it strikes me as sort of odd.  We’re a small little city in Canada on an island and yet there are still ripples from this even over ten years old now that still effect us.  There was even a lecture a few years back at UVIC by Dr. Niels Harrit about the third building. I dragged Joules with me and it was a fascinating talk.  I feel like there are a lot of good points and un-answered questions that get ignored by people who want to write off the truth movement as all crazy tin hat wearing conspiracy theorists. But unless someone (Wikileaks, Snowden etc) uncovers some crazy buried documents, I don’t think we’ll ever really know.

Speaking of interesting things!

I saw a guy with a metal detector in the park that I walk by on my way home.  I wanted to talk to him, but with his super sonic headphones on, i felt like i would be an intrusion.  So I secretly snapped a pic of him!

IMG_3868I was pretending to take a selfie, so he wouldn’t notice. But he had found something and was busy digging away so he most likely didn’t even notice me.

See how sunny it was?! One of the ONLY GOOD things about Daylight savings. I woke up hella tired Monday morning, but at least I got to walk home while it was still nice and sunny.

It makes for some truly lovely pictures.

IMG_3874To anyone out there still reading this, what have you been up to?



Thought Stream One

1) http://archaeology.org/news/1882-140306-egypt-papyrus-letter

(Bancroft Library at the University of California Berkeley)

“HOUSTON, TEXAS—Grant Adamson of Rice University has translated a papyrus discovered 100 years ago outside a temple in the Egyptian town of Tebtunis. Infrared images of the papyrus have made parts of the text, written mostly in Greek, more legible. It is a letter written 1,800 years ago by an Egyptian soldier named Aurelius Polion, who was serving in a Roman legion in Europe. He is desperate to hear from his family, and wants to make the long journey home to see his mother, sister, and brother. “I think that some aspects of military service belong to a common experience across ancient and modern civilizations—part of our human experience in general really. Things like worry and homesickness,” Adamson told Live Science.”

This makes me feel sad.  Thousands of years have passes, and we’re still sending off our young men (and women) to die in wars for monetary interests.

2) I have a girl crush on Jennifer Lawrence

3) How is it only 3pm???

So I did it!

I finally upgraded to Ios 7. I had been delaying the inevitable as I had read that the update shortened battery life, but as more and more apps I wanted to download informed me that they would only work on Ios 7, I knew the time had come.

And you know what?

The world did not end. Yet.

Since I just did the upgrade last night before bed, today will be the first test for how long the battery lasts. So we’ll see!

Any who, on to some other things.  Just read this on the Huff Po:

Beaver Anal Secretions:

Used as a vanilla substitute.

! Isn’t that just so crazy?  Who was the first scientist to smell/taste a beaver’s anal secretions and decided it would make a good vanilla substitute?  As someone who loves vanilla and the scent /taste. It’s got me worried.

Listed under “ingredients” as: Castoreum

Dear heavens…. I’ve got a Quaker Vanilla Yogurt bar on my desk right now.

*rushes to look*

Ok, I think I’m safe. I saw nothing called Castoreum. *phew*