Where to begin?

This website/blog is almost 10 years old. A tombstone on the big wide web of a once would-be comic, a prattling blog filled with crafts and ruminations.

A lot of change came in the last 2 years. My father died (as well as a half brother I’ve never met), my mother is ill, my sisters are far away, I changed jobs, and I’ve somewhat recently separated from my husband.

And now Trump is going to be president.

I want to write but I don’t know where to start.
I want to revive my site but i’m overwhelmed at it all.
I want to make the world a better place but i don’t know how.

Where to begin?

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quick notes on SYTYCD Top Twenty

early favs

team stage

team street

general thoughts
-girls be KILLING it this season
-dance 4, THESE LADIES BE KILLING IT (Brian Fiedman is crazy!!!!!!!111) the judges comments tho? PSH. you’ve asked them to dance crazy sexy outfits in stilleto black heels for universe sake.
~the camera men/cinemetography needs to clean it up! couldn’t even believe that we actually saw one cover a dance scene

the end performance was…. umm.. ok. >< last contemporary peice/almost at the end take away thought
Gabby always stands out!

last hip hop dance
-send asaf homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ./anooyed
srsly, all the street girls are in my top
megs = lily > yorelis > jj > ariana = yaya
(in that order if i have to pick one)

in review (as they roll through all the dances, each line is a diff dance)
yah megz and jj!
gabby is amazinggggggggggg
the girls KILLS it, esp lily (send asaf home)
these ladies are also killing it! (disagree with judges)
ballet it too hard
girls killing it
i felt lots of emotion, ./annnoyed at judges comments

over all, great new format. can’t wait to see how it evolves.
Women are going to win this season.
i miss Mary murphy
but i grudgingly can’t dislike paula because she is really nice and i agree with her alot of the time.
but a whole season with not hot tamale train? the era of Anya and Pasha is really over.

Last thought:

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Let’s talk music!!

Disclaimer: This thought is a little late.  I wanted to write it down at the end of Aug/early sept, and now it’s Sept 20th! What? How!? Time moves ever onwards!

So anyways, my thoughts.  As the summer wound up, I read a lot of articles on “songs of the summer”, and even more on the “song’s that didn’t make the cut” for the summer, and it got me thinking about my top 5 songs that have been on rotation pretty consistantly over the summer.  I listen to music a lot as I walk to and from work everyday rocking out on my iphone to pass the time, and i definitely go through phases and favorites. What riled me up to actually even think about making a blog post was in one of the latter articles that said “Birthday” by Katy Perry just didn’t make it as a song of the summer.

I was allll What!!? Wait! Just stop the music.  

Because honestly forces me to admit that Katy Perry has dominated my play lists this summer. Especially Birthday! No matter what kind of day I had, how stressed i felt, what the weather was, as soon as this song came on I felt good.  It’s a feel good song that makes you want to groove with it.

#1 Birthday

Dark Horse, of course, also makes the list but in particular, an amazing remix I found on youtube. I listen to this more than the original so it takes a place in the top 5.

#2  Dark Horse Gold House Remix (perfect for booking it to work!)

The other artist that dominate my rotation is Calvin Harris.  He’s literally *always* on rotation because he has so many hits.  But the ones I love the most and listen to always are:

#3 Calvin Harris – Thinking About You ft. Ayah Marar  (this is another feel good groove along to song for me)

#4  Calvin Harris & Alesso – Under Control ft. Hurts ( just Love love love the build up in this one.)

My other CH favs, were I not limiting my list to 5 are also Summer, Let’s Go ft. Neyo, We found Love ft Rhianna,  and Feel so close.

The 5th spot was a tight battle between my last two favorite songs this summer, but Cobra Starship wins with You make me Feel.

#5 Cobra Starship: You Make Me Feel… ft. Sabi (this song actually came out in 2011, but I’d never heard it till this summer on a songza playlist.)

The other song that didn’t quite make it, but that gets played an awful lot is:

Afrojack – Ten Feet Tall (Lyric Video) ft. Wrabel

It also has a really good build up, smooth vocals, pretty words. Love it!

Any who, now that it’s fall, i’m trying on some other new songs, getting a feel for them.  Have to admit, the moment Shake it off came out, it was added to the rotation pretty quickly! Which is funny, because that’s another song that was referenced as being released too late for the summer. I think Tswift’s timing was perfect tho.  A fresh new pop song just when the old ones are getting a bit worn.

Also, speaking of silly things on the internet, I read an article that said people who listen to pop music are less creative! Can you believe that? Oh i had a good chuckle at that. ^^

So tell me, what were your top 5 repeat songs of the summer?


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If Wishes were Fishes

I wish there was

an ER

for wounds of the heart.

b/c I do not know how

to heal this

bloody gaping wound

inside my


I wish there was

a magic needle,

in which i could stitch myself (so raw)



I wish i could take

time away.

time apart.

time heals all?

but this.

the trauma

is too severe.

it surprises me

that everyone cannot see it

that everyone is not scrambling for their cell phones

to call an ambulance for my

butchered heart.

(oh yah, it’s all inside me…)

Where once was a

back yard filled

with laughter



with fresh sheets on the line,

where two little girls filled their shoes

with ice cold


for kicks-

in now a scene of devastation.

Flooded by

the ever renewing source of


and irrevocable loss…

my tears have

drowned it


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I LOVE THE SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!

It’s been so rockingly hot and gorgeous here in Victoria! Summer time is most certainly here!

Since of course I’m too lazy to write a proper blog post, here’s my last few months via PICS! YAH!

Firstly, i signed up for two on-line course to see how easy it would be to get back into study mode!

Chibi cat has just LOVED this new development.  We have a new routine where she keeps me company as i study, provided I hook her up with some paper to lounge on.

photo 5





My mum gave me this lovely plant! It’s called a portulaca! And it’s soooooo gorgeous and blooms like crazy! Also note worthy in this picture is my awesome new Wine Tumblr.  Classy!photo 3



Holy addictive batman.  And it’s making me ALL nostalgic for my old wow days….photo 4


The summer skies have been oh so lovely… (and oh so chem-y if you know what I mean!photo 1 (1)

Chibi cat is my favouritest thing in the whole universe!photo 2 (1)

Coming in a short second are sunday afternoons with my Mumkins.  This is her lovely garden, (up on the 12th floor), proving she’s got the greenest thumb ever!
photo 1 (2)

More Chibiness….photo 4 (1)

More Wines…..photo 3 (1)

New song I love….

photo 5


What’s going on with you internet world?

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